I'm having a very hard time getting sleepy tonight because I'm so nervous. It's actually to the point that I seriously don't feel like going. I will, but it just feels so scary. It's almost worse than the first time I went. It just started to feel kind of familiar and safe and now there's new people joining and the fact that one of them has the same name as my father really doesn't work. I know it's not him, my therapist made sure of that, but that name just brings up a lot of crappy memories and feelings. I've felt like crying all day because of it. I guess I have to go to bed since it's 10.25 but I don't think I'll sleep well